My existence a "?" mark

Looking the reflection in a stagnant water,
Makes me feel proud.
Without letting the words to utter,
Hates me all walk in the crowd.
Far from a normal human's , I have my own different world,
Where haunts all the freaking devils of earth.
No one I find to cradle me in this world,
All look's supportive but abusive is the core rule of this hearth.
My beauty is not judged for my apparel and glamour,
Bosom is what they judge for my beauty.
Judgement is done for the money I worth,
If I turn into a mint,
Then would my rating be done as the most beautiful and sexiest on earth.

Disseminate clamour of pain throughout the crib ,
I fondle the pain blissfully,
Knowing it's my life,
Light and freedom is what I expect hopefully,
Nobody hears my disconsolation,
the awful results of pain are enjoyed fiercely inside the crib.

Lodging and fooding was cold,
Brought to gloomy world,
This is a heaven I was told ,
Ferocity haunts, they never told.

I see suave damsel roaming around,
Comparing If I could stand somewhere around,
I find no difference but
Why am  I called by a different name "whore"?
Why so called civilized boycott me from society ?
Why can't I live a gallantry and gaiety life like them?
After all I was deceived from the society ,
The society where the noblest survive being a hypocrite,
Where aristocracy roots but being willowy is lethal or deeply criticized.

I am in a fragile condition,
Rescue me !!! has become an open expedition,
If this goes on,
Cad's will rule the competition.
I dream of cavalry fortify to save me,
Fighting and grouping with many more like me.
I will be laughing at God,
Seeing the end of universe,
As our eternal flame of vengeance will burn whole universe.